i’ve had enough.

Sometimes it’s so easy to make judgments about others based on what you think you know. You’ll never know how that person’s day was going, unless you ask. It’s so easy to just ask. Don’t assume things about that person before you even know what’s going on in their lives because you just don’t fucking know. Most people attribute wrongdoings to other people’s personal flaws, but what they don’t know is that most wrongdoings are situational. 

There’s just so much negativity in this world. People complaining about shit that doesn’t even matter. People coming home from work displacing their anger on their loved ones. People undergoing verbal abuse on a daily basis. 

If you want to be negative, be negative elsewhere, but don’t you dare cramp up my style. 

I’m just one of those difficult girls, but not by default.

YOLO.

Life is too short. Live it up. Smile everyday. Don’t be mad at anything for more than 10 minutes a day. 

get off my shit.

Don’t handicap your child.

Why do some people who grew up very well off feel entitled to everything? And by everything, I mainly mean materialistic things, like new cars. I have several friends who truly believe that they deserve a new car and that their parents should buy it for them.

First of all, what gives you the right to even think that you deserve a new car? Because you graduated college? Woopdeefreakindoo. Everyone who can’t go to college because they can’t afford it would LOVE to be in your shoes. You’re lucky your parents even paid for your college. You’re lucky you grew up the way you did and was raised in a family who loved you enough to provide you with a solid education.

Secondly, why don’t you earn your new car? If you keep receiving materialistic things in life, you’re less likely to love it. I don’t know about you, but when I can buy things with my own money, it gives me a sense of pride. I love the item more because I bought it. 

Parents can really handicap a child by making everything in that child’s life too easy. What sense of achievement will the child receive when everything is handed to them in life? It’s been researched and studied in social psychology, that even babies lack appreciation when they were given materialistic toys over verbal rewards. 

Thirdly, think about those who are less fortunate than you are. Those who can’t even think about buying a new car. Place yourself in their shoes. Those are the ones who appreciate everything they have. Now place yourself back in your shoes. Do you appreciate the things you have, or do you always just want more? Never satisfied with having some things, but always craving more? I guess it’s human nature to want more than you have, but maybe it’s time to stop, think about what you already have, and cherish it. 

I’m not saying that materialistic people are bad nor are they always undeserving. I’m also not saying that I’m judging them because I know it’s not their fault that they feel entitled to everything…it’s how they were raised. I’m just saying that it’s so easy for people to get carried away with what they’re entitled to, when, really, they’re some of the luckiest people to be alive. 

feeling myself letting go.

nostalgia.

As the weather is warming up, and I wake up smiling at the sun, I can’t help but feel that life is moving by too fast. I used to remember childhood taking forever, and now I can’t seem to stop time. To be honest, it’s putting me in some sort of stress. Graduation is a month or so away. When I entered college, I didn’t do any of the things I thought I’d be doing. But, that’s life. Life never happens the way you want it to. I’m not upset though, just nostalgic. I have no regrets the way I spent my days here. Looking back, it’s just kind of weird how naive I was. I thought I’d get straight A’s. I thought I’d be a pediatrician. I thought I’d study abroad in Paris. I thought I’d find my soulmate and get married to my college sweetheart right after college. None of that happened. I’m not worried about not achieving those things, though. 

I’m just sad that I won’t be able to do this anymore. Lie freely on the turf of College Ave while staring at the clouds in good company. 

I mean, of course I can always look at the clouds anywhere, but, it won’t be the same. I won’t have that relaxed feeling that I have between classes. I just hope life doesn’t become too complicated when I’m older.